Jul 29, 2010
Life-long learning, this catchy phrase has always been associated with the elderly picking up skills despite of all obstacles. It is encouraging to hear, and being positive about it.
Only recently, i realized that i had been really wasting my time away.. Despite of putting my efforts on studies itself, i prioritized some other aspects thats redundant in this stage of my life.
I am lost.
Lost in my own world
Lost in the foreign world of wonder land.
Lost in my world of fantasies,
Lust, Love, Greed, Selfishness, Narrow-mindedness
In short, I am leading an aimless life now.
Nothing can practically perk me up, jerk me from my dependency on parent, reliance of my comfort zone.
Realized the importance, and the fact that we humans are living creatures after all.
Secondary four biology teacher- Mrs Wee Sock Chin, my favorite teacher of my whole study life..
Taught me- Survival of the fittest, only the strongest survive- Which is true.
In the animal kingdom, there is always roles, of being a predator, a prey, or both in the same organism. In the human aspect, there is the poor, the riches, the powerful, the respectable, the good looking elvis, the ugly betty.. Everyone is being classified into different classes.
Being a Singaporean myself, i am blessed with good life, even though i am not born with golden spoon. The too-well pathed Education System made me too dependent on what is given to me right in my face and not making me perusing it.
Enough said, a change has to be made, no matter how tough it is, i wanna be the guy i used to be, the ever curious guy who are so passionate of knowing new stuffs.
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jinn winks
at |8:17 PM|
Jul 11, 2010
Updates on my pet pigeons-
Gaga flew off, and for a few days he was no where to be seen. Today he came back for awhile for the food, i wanted to touch him but he was already so wild that he moment he came near to me he wanted to fly away. I used a very soft method to call him back and he slowly went back to his "old house" and i managed to pet him. It was growing well, and i was relieved that it was leading a life that he wanted to have. I let him free and i will always invite him back to the old house to have a quick snack.. Well, who isn't like that. Those foreigners, who lived way back in china, malaysia, indonesia.. they go back to their old homes once in awhile. Sometimes when u love something, or someone, u don't need them by the side, just knowing that they are doing well, will do.
Bibi is doing incredibly these days. He has been able to fly high, far and still come back to me when he is done flying. We'll i have comments from fellow friends that i was incredible to train my pigeons to do that while they can't even train their much higher intelligence creatures- dogs. Knowing this, i was assured that.. I have done my best as an owner, and is looking forward to doing more. But there was pain in the process.. when i have to lose my pigeons, looking for them.. missing them, worrying for them, making sure they are not bored of the environment...etc.
Putting pigeons aside, I had a dinner with one of my friends. Being really experienced in life, he gave me a really rewarding lecture on life, work, studies... etc. Realizing that there are so much things for me to learn, pick up, go through.. I can't afford to stay stagnant. What is the purpose of us living, when one has no dreams?
Life is indeed tough, but never predictable. U never know a degree holder would have to drive a taxi someday, nor an ITE student may make it big in the business world. Not saying driving taxi is bad job, but its just not as ideal. But what is an IDEAL job?
A Doctor? A Lawyer? A Teacher? What makes a job good? And what makes a job bad? The salary?
I just came to a point. I have no dreams... I used to have so much passion about life. And when uncertainty sets in, i get emotional. Because i don't know what i should do next. What will happen to me, my future and such. But now i don't even get emotional. Cos i don't even think of it. But after the talk today, yeah, i think i know what to do... I should spend time thinking of what i will wanna be, and how am i going to achieve it.
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jinn winks
at |1:35 AM|
Jul 4, 2010
The night was grand. Very grand. I was there, working as a waiter serving the very important people. The table i served was table 217 and it was freaking far from the decoy area. There were 500 tables of 10 pax each table.. Each table settings cost 800bucks, in total, the whole event spent more than S$400,000 for the entire event. Lee Hsien Loong was there as the GUEST OF HONOUR, with other Ministers like Lim Boon Heng in the VVIP SEATS. Yes, i didnt type wrongly. It is VVIP. VERY VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE. I saw other Ministers and important people as well. Baey Yam Keng was beside my table and he wore so dashing.. Goh Chok Tong was there and his head popped out among the audiences while walking the red carpet... Haha. damn tall. But the whole night made me so tired. Walked so much.. Because the whole place was three ballrooms connected together, total of 500 tables, 10+ screens.. Even TAUFIK BATISA and RAHIMA RAHIM was there to perform the rasa saya hei song...
There was this guy from my table trying to start a conversation with me while i collected his plate. It goes like that:
"Boy, are you a student now?"
"Yes, I am"
"So where are you studying in?"
" I study in SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC"
"Oh! What course are you in?"
"I am in CHEMICAL ENGINEERING"
"I see, i just conducted a speech there recently during the graduation"
"Okay." *Smiled with a grin, while i collects the next guy's plate*
Interesting. But we are not supposed to have long conversations with the guests. So i cannot reciprocate much. I heard them discussing about finding jobs in SINGAPORE.
I was so tired. But i got to know this girl named pearl. We seems to have some common interest. She has some attributes of the girl in my secondary school female classmate who wasn't in good terms with me. :)
Oh yeah by the way, i always have wanted to blog about my pigeons. Haha.. Gaga, the smaller pigeon is a great flyer now. It can fly anywhere it wants and still return to my place after that alone. That means it can recognize his own home and still comes back to sleep in the same place every day. I am so proud of my own pigeon.
Today i brought bibi down for a flight. And i walked to the near the end of the connector beside the canal and started to make bibi fly towards me while i run. I ran for like about 50 metres and bibi followed me way behind. But soon it just swayed to the side and headed to the canal, water catchment and flew right above it. It was so clumsy at first and didnt know where to land, kept swaying side to side.. I was damn worried and called out for it... But after about 5 seconds of struggle above the canal, the flight got smoother and it could fly smoothly and elevate to the more trees area out of the canal part. I thought that it will drown in the water,as i always thought that it was so stupid to even able to land on water. But it eventually landed on my hand.. I could see bibi panting while opening this mouth grasping for air. But it was a huge step for it.
Alright, i shall design a loft for them now. :) It is getting too crowded day by day.
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jinn winks
at |2:53 PM|
Jul 3, 2010
There is a vague definition. Animal lover. Are u an animal lover? Just happen to know 1 or 2 guys who keeps/kept exotic creatures. Why? For the sake of their survival in the wild? Or merely just showing off that u have such rare creatures roaming in the hall of the small HDB "nest" ?
Okie, i keep pigeons. I found them below the nest along mrt tracks. Knowing they can't survive without the care of the parents and living in high places to avoid their natural predators. I have to keep them. But till now, i let them roam free, they are free to fly away in anytime.
Can someone tell me? Is being persistent a good thing?
Working later, after quite a long time... 1pm to 11pm! Hope its a pleasant time for me. Really. I have no more money. i need lots of money!
Thats all for today. I am HUNGRY!
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jinn winks
at |1:31 AM|
